MRI

It's hard for me to believe that it has been 3 months since Cillian's surgery this summer. Here we are. Sure enough, 3 months later. It's MRI time. I got the phone call today at lunch telling us what time to arrive, what time the test would begin, up until what time he could eat, up until what time he could have clear liquids, etc etc. So we go tomorrow - Doug and I will wake up at 5, James at 5:20, C at 5:30, leave and get to the hospital at 6:30am, check-in and then C goes back at 7:30 to anesthesia. Then I wait. Doug takes James out - to where, we're not sure yet but I'm sure they'll have fun. James is sad about missing school but hopefully he'll enjoy the time with Doug in the city. Then when he's out and waking up, they get me, I go back to recovery and then when we make it clear to recovery part two, Doug and James can come back and then after we're discharged, we can go home. And then we wait. Films are usually examined within 72 hours of the imaging. So for us that means Wednesday. By Wednesday we should know something. I have said there are three outcomes but really I suppose there are four:

1. That there is nothing on the film and the 'thing' they saw over the summer was really just an 
    artifact, a blur, a smudge.
2. That there is something and it's the same something they saw and it hasn't changed size or shape.
3. That there is something and it's changed size or shape.  
4. That there's something else too.

If it's 1, we do nothing but celebrate. If 2, we have periodic MRIs to check on it. If 3 or 4, we go see Dr. A (neurosurgeon).

Right now I don't really have a gut feeling on this. However, what I do have is a feeling that everything is going to be okay no matter what the outcome is of the MRI. I was on a walk with the boys on Monday - there was no school for us - and I said quietly to myself, "If I see a cardinal, everything will be fine - his MRI will be clear." Then we turned the corner and I didn't see a cardinal, I saw four. Two males and two females. When I saw them, I smiled and realized that we've got a lot of people looking out for us. Our guardian angels. Four of them to be exact. It was more a feeling of peace than relief. My Aunt Coleen recently forwarded me a prayer my Nana kept. My Aunt Judy found it. It's been helpful to me and I think as we await the results, it will prove to be even more comforting to me. Maybe for you too.

 

You will be shielded or given the strength so be at peace.

 

Our little Hero Cillian will again be brave tomorrow.

 

We love you so much our little darling Cillian.